Thursday, December 20, 2012

When One Is Lost

For Tex.


            The unexpected.
            It takes you off course, and puts a question mark on the end of everything. That’s normal. Within a moment the Universe changes. Nothing goes back to how it was. And how it was, at that moment, feels like the better times. Perspective will consistently get you. Fortunately it is something you can control. Take a look at your unexpected. Decide what you are meant to get out of it, and then do not be surprised when it all implodes. We are human. We feel.
            Why would God implant in us the rational mind, but distort it with emotions? Why should the two conflict?
            That is the dynamic that makes the human being the essence of divinity. We are love, we are compassion, we are empathy, we are sympathy, we are the shapers and creators of our own destinies, the manifestation of our own acts. Such is our power.
            And yet.
            The unthinkable.
            It takes all your precious plans and dashes them against the stones. Suddenly, all your constructs, your systems, your differences, and your pride fall in noise-laden showers. Provided you have a heart, it is normal. There is once again a Universal shift whose change is permanent. We are naked and stripped of flesh and sinew, hands up in exasperation, and defense. Absolutely susceptible to the overarching question – why?
            Why these weapons which strike mercilessly at our core? Why destroy our carefully polished veneer?
            The core of the person is often sicklied over with our tiny interpretations of what we should, or should not be. When the unexpected, the unthinkable arises, whatever gloss we have constructed cracks, and falls. The pieces are best left alone. We can no more restore the coating piece by piece than we can put a broken egg back together. 
            And yet.
            The unimaginable.
            We, through our fear, refuse to embrace the unknown with which we are suddenly presented. Common sense demoted to philosophical rhetoric. The greatest gift the unexpectedly departed give us - the defusing of our petty conflicts, and differences, we tend to toss aside. Yet through the miracle we are, our dual nature of emotion and rationality, the realignment of the Universe, and the shifting of perspective; what was unimaginable a precious moment ago manifests within us the enigma of change.
            Deep within, next to that question – what am I meant to get out of it? – is the question, is it worth the cost? I retort – did you have any power in the payment? No. So the unexpected, and so the pain.
            And yet.
            The miracle.
            Inevitably it is gratitude. Inevitably in the precious reserve of memory there is only good. Inevitably we heal. Inevitably, if you so choose, you win. The unexpected, the unthinkable, the unimaginable all move worlds that were once thought to have permanence. It even moves the worlds within.
            Will you honor the departed by welcoming the blessing they so wish for you?
            Will you?
            First mourn.
            Then embrace.
            Then mend.
            It is in the taking apart and reassembly that we, as human beings, are strengthened. We blossom from wreckage. We profit from chaos. We achieve resolve from endurance.
            Are we not magnificent?
            The very essence, and seed of the divine?
            We are.